What I want

What I want is to be able to walk away,
and not care, not be afraid.
Afraid you will laugh harder than before,
Afraid you will love more and more.
What I want is to be able to shrink and fade,
and make what we were to dissipate.
I'd hate for forever this taste to hang,
for the happiness and joy forever remain.
Contort, rewrite, make joy into pain.
Hate, be clever and waste each refrain,
that sings and flow, instead constipate
I want to be able to wink and evade.
Make you afraid that I will be there forever more.
Make you afraid you will never laugh as hard as before.
I won't care, I won't be afraid,
But I still won't be able to walk away.

Another tryst with stilted talk and bore

Another tryst with stilted talk and bore,
You turn to talk, but I ignore.
What's more, my eyes begin to glaze,
another comma, some words, and then a phrase.
I pity your pithy lips, even though others praise.
I gaze into your throat, into the maze.
Maybe your brain has fallen down there, down a ways,
maybe that's why you speak of mayonnaise,
for 30 minutes......... no pause, no break.
So as you sneeze, this opportunity take!
"What think ye of Shakespeare, Chaucer, and Blake!"
"Oh your so cute when you talk smart Blakey-Blake"
This is the Chalice that others seek!
Easy to master, easy to teach.
You touch my nose, I wanna sneeze,
and blow some intellect in with the barren debris!
You turn to talk,
I walk away.
For someone else,
wrote a sonnet today.

Havasupai - 12 adventurers, 5 jumps, 4 falls, 3 blessings, 3 sleepless nights, and 1 heck of a time

An old Indian's face is much like the walls of these canyons, etched slowly by time, each wrinkle or crack a living history etched on the face.

What a trip. What an epic adventure. What a group of people. Almost everyone jumped off the cliffs and everyone made the hike. No one flew out their packs either. The water was so blue and green. Unbelievably beautiful and every night there was a sell-out crowd of stars to look at. There were times that I couldn't stop the theme music from "Last of the Mohicans" from running through my head. Mostly when we would climb up behind the waterfalls and then jump out. There was one jump that was just ridiculous. It was super high and the overlook that we were jumping off of was dirt that was crumbling and falling into the river. I was the third to jump but I "helped" the people in front of me by encouraging them with words like "Don't do it man!" or "what if........ and then you die!" They were really lucky to have me there with them. I was so courageous, so confidant. (not) I also came to realize that Dave might be the craziest person I have ever met. At one point he was walking down the river looking up at places to jump from and we were like "Veto! Veto!" the was standing about waste high in water so I'm sure he wasn't serious, but it is hard to tell sometimes with him. OOOHHHH, and then there was Beaver Falls. Super high! There was another group of hikers that got there and just waited around to watch us jump, and there was no way any of them were going to jump. Niki jumped there too! It was amazing. I came to realize there really are daring and adventurous girls out there. Actually I don't care who you are, if you jumped where she jumped you are adventurous, boy or girl.

The only gripe I have about the trip is my own fault really. Tiny blanket + hammock = 5 hours of sleep in 3 days. That 5 hour estimate by the way is pretty generous. The wind blew every night. On the last night about the only sleep that I recieved came after I made myself a cup of hot chocolate and fell asleep kneeling and curled up. That lasted, oh maybe 15 minutes. When I got home I slept like a rock. Well, I slept like a rock that also slobbers. I went to bed at 8 last night. Mostly because I was incoherent and was afraid I might fall asleep while waling or something ridiculous like that.

I'll post some pictures after I get home from work but until next time, ta ta for now!

AIG

I've been watching this AIG thing for a while and it just makes me sick. I was reading an article a former employee of AIG wrote and this is excatly what makes me sick.
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/03/25/opinion/25desantis.html?scp=1&sq=Desantis&st=cse

LYING.

The politics of this just makes me sick. First the government buys out AIG and decides that politicians (former school teachers, athletes, grown up rich kids, crazy liberals) should make the decisions for one of the largest and most complex companies in America..... scary. Then they tell the company, you cannot give your employees more than $1 million in bonuses. So the government blankets all these employees and says since we own the company no one hear deserves more than a mill in bonuses. Well some of these employees have already been promised a million dollars and have been working for nothing based on the premises that when the year is over they get that money. Not any more. Well, even though the government figured their worth was only this much, the corporations and economy didn't. Other companies would have swooped in and picked up a lot of these guys. So the government changed their minds and changed the bill and legislation, they negotiated and promised these guys their bonuses so they would stay. Then a couple of months later the politicians are all screaming THIS IS OUTRAGEOUS!!!!! WHO WOULD BELIEVE!!!! You should, you moron. You approved it. You promised them this compensation and like most of your promises it was a bold faced lie. And how dare you go on TV with bold statements and lie to the world that you knew nothing about it. You specifically went back and wrote those bonuses back in. Just because you are in a position of leadership does not give you the right to lie and cheat and steal. I see you on TV blasting CEO's use of airplanes. Pelosi, were you taking a private military jet around the country the other day....... ooohhh all the time, thats right. It make me sick. Don't worry though America. If we go communist all of our best talent will go over seas seeking more compensation and we will just export all the earnings potential.

Oh what glorius days are ahead.

The year of Blake

So I want everybody to know that this is the year of Blake and so far things have been going great. I grew a beard thing and it came in good and I was able to keep it for a while and trim it and not look too much like a bumb. It did get some chuckles from Elder Perry when he came to see us, and my girlfriend even defended me on it several times. oh yeah. My girlfriend...

another reason this is the year of Blake. Those who know me know that the idea of dating a girl seriously is enough to put me in a coma, well, I can't help it, she is really sweet. The other night I actually kissed her. (again, narrowly avoiding the coma) and it was just a little peck but we were talking and laughing outside for like an hour. It was a great night. The next day she told me she threw up later that night. Yeah, THREW UP! I told her, "sorry, jeese, it has been a really LONG TIME SINCE I HAVE DONE THAT." haha, guess I just couldn't save those virgin lips like I had always dreamed. P.S. her name is Erin, and she is in accounting! YAY! hahahaha

Tax season is upon us at the office and somehow I am doing taxes. I don't know what they are thinking, just prepare the cell and bed for my poor boss who accepts me as a liability. I do try hard and am going to start working from home though.

I got a new computer. A netbook to be excact. The battery lasts 7 hours, it only weighs 3 pounds, it comes with XP, it has a gig of RAM, and only cost $380. What more could a man ask for, except maybe a screen larger than 10"......

Today for my birthday Erin and I are going to my grandma's to make taffy. I love my gramma.... and Erin is nice too so it should be good times.

I love my family, thanks for the calls today. Wish the best to everyone.

Here is to me! happy birthday!

Excited for Obama

I admit it. I am excited for Barrack Obama to be President of the United States of America. I think we should all be. I liked McCain better, liked his stances on the moral issues better, and agree with McCain's economic views (Purely that they were less damaging than Barrack's, not because they were more promising).

I do not want to hear any more jokes about Barrack Obama. He is the President elect and put your sore-loserness aside and be patriotic. It does not mean you should or shall agree with what his does, it just means to be optimistic and ready to be involved and active in things you see that are good. I have spent the last 4 years watching bitterness effectively null promising policies and ideas from the Bush administration. People unwilling to put love of country ahead of personal pride killed the oppurtunity for many to get involved and active in truly effective Bush policies.

I will not be that person with Barrack. I will work and be involved with things that I agree with, and not take part in what I do not. Barrack will not make me encourage abortions are make me participate in homosexual activities. I do not condone them. I will not take part in them. I do believe however that Barrack will usher in a new culture of social responsibility. We need that. We need to be kinder, and more willing to serve and give to those around us. We can do with a little less, and give a little more. So I am willing. If I get super rich, I will be okay with getting taxed more. I would be the one living the American dream, and my conscience mandates I extend that oppurtunity to others.

Be patriotic,
get ready to support President Obama.

(Palin is still hot)

I'm not the proton you need

You were like an unstable electron,
looking for a proton,
any proton.
And that's why you were so wrong.
Bouncing around the universe,
unversed, yet traversed,
you thought tou knew it all,
you just didn't get it doll.
You tried to hit it wrong,
and fouled off,
each swing a foul ball,
you got it all out,
and ended up a foul mouth,
you flew way south,
and lost my respect.
Now your bet,
is I'll still be at the plate.
Ready to take another swing,
But the truth is another thing,
I'm not even on deck.
This was Toulouse,
So now I gotta Trec.
and now your cryin,
sayin your goin through heck,
baby, wait a sec.
Yeah, you wagered a bad bet.

So I got it figured out,
I know what your all about.
Power player sayin what you want,
and then you pout.
We know what you're about,
about me?
Let me get it all out.
I'm not about to get up and give you my time.
I keep on smiling because I know you know I'm lyin,
I won't be back around to see you,
I don't need a sign,
I'm walking out because my hind-,
sight is 20/20, back then I was blind.
So baby take your time.
Pledge your promises,
like rhombuses,
their awekwardly shaped.
Over frivolence their draped,
baby my ears you've taped.
But while I've got my sanity,
I passionatly say,
baby go away,
come back another day.